Sheep in Wolves’ Clothing: Learning to Love Those “Dark” Emotions

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked,
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

~ Khalil Gibran

Confess to feeling a negative emotion and voices will clamour to either fix you or load you down with guilt. Negative emotional experiences are often framed as diseases to be cured, prisons to escape, monsters to be slain, or, worst of all, evidence of a flawed character. Prescription drugs are developed, self-help books are written, and an entertainment industry strives to distract you, all in a well-meant but misguided attempt to “save” you from your dark moods.

Embracing your negative emotions without self-condemnation and learning from them is a necessary part of your journey. Let me give you a few examples.


In The Gift of Fear Gavin De Becker describes one criminal assault after another in which the victim was able in retrospect to pinpoint the exact moment when they should have run away — but chose not to for fear of being rude; it was the moment when they began to experience an unexplained fear.

As children we’re taught to be obedient, respectful, and polite to adults, and children who exhibit fear are often scolded. An examination of our fear rather than a repudiation of it will tell us if the fear is reasonable or not, but respecting fear is essential to our safety. Not every fire alarm signals a real fire, but being ready to leave quickly and calmly when you hear one can save your life.


On his first wedding anniversary my great grandfather surprised his young wife with a gift of a box of chocolates, to which she exclaimed, “Oh, dear, we can’t afford that!” Although she could see that her words had hurt his feelings. she never apologized.

He never bought her another gift. He would give her money on special days, but never again would he take the time to pick out something nice for her.

You could frame his reaction as vengeance stretched out to the end of absurdity, but you’d be wrong: This was and remained a very happy marriage, in part because he remembered her thoughtless response to his thoughtful gesture. His refusal to buy her gifts kept his feelings from being hurt ad infinitum, as they would have been had he continued to buy her gifts. Grammy remained a stingy party pooper to the end of her days, and it took Grandpa’s tightly held grudge to keep her petty price taggery from casting a cloud over an otherwise harmonious union.

Tell anyone that you’re holding a grudge and they’ll either commiserate with you or tell you to move on and put the hurtful event out of your mind. But Sophie Hannah very wisely points out in her book How to Hold a Grudge that holding onto the memory of hurt in the right way can help you avoid a heap of pain.

As Hannah explains, it’s perfectly reasonable to love someone while remembering those unapologetic letdowns. How else can you avoid being hurt in the same way again and again? An absence of regret is a clear forewarning, and a grudge can keep you from pointless reruns of the same offending behaviour.


Among internet psychobabblers perhaps the harshest criticisms are aimed at jealousy. Jealousy is selfish, cruel, even crazy, so if you do experience it try to pretend you don’t.

I always want to write to those who rant about how awful jealous people are and ask them if they’ve ever cheated on their partners. From my experience the strongest rancour against jealousy nearly always comes from people who want to have their cake and eat it, too, that is, those who wish to pursue the passing thrill of infidelity while retaining the deep benefits of a committed relationship. For the rest of us, jealousy has its reasons.

Jealousy is the complex of anger, fear, and hurt feelings that emerges when we think that resources belonging to us are or might be channeled elsewhere. The question we need to ask ourselves is this: To what resources am I justly entitled?

Do you feel jealous of Snow White because you believe you’re the fairest in the land? Get over it. Are you jealous of a colleague for working so hard and being so good at what they do that they got the promotion you wanted? Cry me a river. Is your partner ignoring you and paying an inappropriate amount of attention to attractive strangers? Now we can talk.

With jealousy we have, like fear, a kind of alarm system that should be taken seriously. Sure it’s bad for you and your relationships if your jealousy is completely unfounded, especially when it’s linked to childhood hurts. Ask yourself if the present event reminds you of anything you’ve experienced before.  If your jealousy is mostly rooted in the past, it’s probably unwise to act on it.

But even unfounded jealousy often enters committed relationships in response to poor communication, secretiveness, and even outright efforts to provoke it . Sometimes it arrives to let you know that the relationship itself is on rocky ground and that you’re unconsciously trying to justify leaving.

In a healthy relationship two partners should be able to listen to each other’s doubts and fears, carefully explaining what provokes the jealous feelings and working out solutions. Such sharing demonstrates concern and respect and can only strengthen a relationship. If jealousy can provoke that kind of interpersonal growth, can it really be all bad?


The Gibran quote at the start of this article says it all. Have you ever felt happier than at the end of a period of great sorrow and pain? And didn’t you appreciate life so much more? In addition to inviting us to slow down and reflect, sadness deepens our capacity for joy. We come out of the mire with treasures in our hands. Denying sadness and wallowing in it for too long are both unhealthy, but sadness can provide a window of insight and a preparation of the soul for a deeper, more abiding joy.



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